“This is a time in my life
Where everything is falling apart,
And at the same time, it’s all coming together.”
One year ago today i was in Canada, meeting back up with some friends i had met while travelling while they let me into their home and then played tour guide while taking me through the Canadian Rockies. Canada was the one place i visited during the whole 12 months i was away that actually felt like home, it felt comfortable and it was everything i wanted. After just one day there i had my heart set on moving there.. Instead i ended up continuing with the last few months of travels and coming home.
Ive now been home 10 months, and wow its gone so fast! It has been a weird 10 months though.. good times mixed with the bad. Good in the sense that its great to have real friends again, and not just having to make chat with people you know you’ll probably never see again in your life. And i am in the process of building my own home which is a massive thing! But i have never felt so lost. I cant even explain it. I have good days, and bad days. The good are becoming alot more frequent lately which is fabulous! But the bad ones still creep in often enough to pull me back down to the bottom.. Its not just being ‘stuck in Perth’ (which people usually complain about) that has made me feel like this - i LOVE Perth. Its alot of different things all mixed into one big massive confused emotion! … I dont like it. I miss the old positive me. And she is slowly coming back - thank golly gosh!!